I agree with you, Tom, that studying the nature of darkness is a useful endeavor.
We do want to "get it", grok it, get the structure of it, enter into that terrain.
And yet, I find that the best way to understand darkness is to look directly into the manifestations of that in myself. Here I have access to first hand information. Reading stuff on the web, I cannot know what is true and what has been distorted or magnified or minimized.
If I am not dealing with that here, how can I be effective with dealing with it there?
When I have a reaction to something that is happening out there, I can always find something similar within myself if I look hard enough. It may be much more subtle in me than in its its outer manifestations, but it is still there are locatable.
In fact, I doubt that I could even see that out there, if I had not already experienced it in here.
As I was watching the movie tonight that I mention in my earlier post, I kept asking myself: "Why am I watching this?" Here is my answer: I was watching an outer expression of what I do inside. A specific frequency here could relate to what was out there, it was feeding on that same frequency in the movie, growing bigger from this dinner.
Then the point came when I really caught what was happening and chose to turn off that aliveness destroying downward spiral, and create a different more positive and productive current.
Reading about that short feller in DC that some folk call the President, (he has never been my President), feeds, for me, the very aspects of myself I want to phase out. It might be the perfect path for someone, and perhaps you Tom, but for me doing so is just not congruent with my deepest commitment to myself to focus on solutions and not problems.
Impeachment proceedings are well on their way for those parts of myself here, and they need my full attention. New leadership is being installed here and this needs my full attention.
Here, every day, I can vote out more and more of that which blocks positive change and vote in that which brings in creative positive change. Here I can upgrade the media of this mind. Here I can end that which makes needless war and comes up with empty justifications for that. Here I can rebuild destroyed cities inside.
Here I can be a radical activist for who is totally engaged in rebuilding this local part of America. That which I have destroyed I can rebuild. As I rebuild this part of our country, I can help other parts rebuild as well.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
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